How to tell it’s time for a reality check

How do I gage the level of healthy emotions that I feel and process regularly ?

By doing reality checks with my gut feeling ! Sometimes others will point it out too haha

I like to use real life examples and it just so happens that I had an “incident” today that left me unsettled. This is the word I always fall back on when I have to introspect and readjust my inner peace.

Let me summarize what happened and how I processed it right after…

I met with a contact for the second time in the last 10 months and the first meet wasn’t very pleasant. I felt her condescending tone the entire time and simply brushed it off and kept my cool. Today I was in the mindset “I won’t let her talk to me like that again so I will dominate this meeting by being even more condescending”; such a terrible and ineffective approach !! To be honest I’m emotional and I’ve seen it come out at the worst and best times. This was definitely one of the worst considering the context and my boss that was pressent. I lost all notions of right and wrong, I just wanted to say my part and ensure she would not overstep. I just went about it the wrong way. I felt like the biggest ass! I saw looks of pity from the others as they saw me insecure. I show that side when there are too many unknowns and things I can’t control in my life. My personal life is really stressful as I sold my condo and looking for a house, it’s been 2 months and I haven’t found anything in my budget ! I’m feeling discouraged and I’m exhausted. I can’t sleep, lack motivation to run and exercise and the weather is rainy so it adds a level of sadness to the atmosphere. I also have my kids in school, hockey and covid-19 regulations and new measures that are communicated daily. It’s a lot to handle at the same time and it’s showing in my interactions at work. I’m also more negative and short tempered. I’m also needy and selfish. I seek attention and reassurance from external sources. I feel this heavy rock on my chest and tension in my neck and shoulders. My muscles are so contracted that I get cramps! I also stopped meditating as I couldn’t even concentrate on my breathing !

Now tell me: are these good enough reasons to stop and do a reality check !!??

Hells ya !!!

I’m about to slap myself back to reality ! Like really hard…when the head turns to the side and you see the cheek vibrate in slow motion lol you know the kind right ?;)

Instead I’ll have to disconnect from all social media, electronics, people and sit with myself in silence until I can hear my breathing again.

Once that’s back to normal I will take a pen and paper…write down all the issues that are causing me the biggest stress and do a pros and cons list. I always find the worst case scenario and the solution to it. This and only this frees my mind space and removes the unnecessary stress so I can be myself again and enjoy life.